Braylon and Coop

Is it Autism or some other emotional disorder??

      So despite the recent opposition surrounding me about my feelings towards whats going on with my Braylon Michael, I followed my instinct and made the calls necessary to to get my son evaluated and get my family and my baby the help we need. When I talked to the head assessment coordinator yesterday she let me know in the end that she is certain he will qualify for the early intervention program, just based on my observations and answers to her questions. Of course she can't diagnose him over the phone but she is passing our info on immediately to the intake lady to get the ball rolling.
       My recent concerns for my baby are that he may have a high functioning form of autism or something similar and even if not autism I can say with confidence that he is suffering from some sort of emotional distress. My family closest to me chalks up his behavior as just being a 2 yr old, yet it's been going on for a year or more now. They believe his regression and emotional outbreaks are due to all the stress our family has been under the past few months or blame it on me for not allowing him to get the exercise he should be getting. I do the best I can, given that I am the full time caregiver of him and his baby brother. Cooper doesn't make it that easy for me to take braylon out all the time and let him run wild! I do the best I can with the resources that are available to me!
      Now I'm not saying they aren't correct in probably all 3 of those statements. Being an almost 2 year old will make him a little more emotional. The amt of stress and arguing going on between my parents and I now, but my husband and I before will def add stress to my baby. I have expressed to my parents on several occasions I can't keep having this negativity around my boys. I can't understand how they were mad at my husband and I for arguing yet the fighting continues here between us. And yes he would benefit from playing alot more.
       What my parents and some are not seeing is the regression I see. They don't see how often my baby boy slaps himself in the face or hits his head on something. They don't fully grasp the amount of emotional outbursts he has in even ONE HOUR!!! He barely says 15 words but knows just as many signs as he does words. He took to signing very well. We started teaching him this past year so he could communicate with us until he talked more, but the talking has yet to come. He wont repeat the words I speak but he repeats the syllable sounds I make. When I say "right foot" he repeats the sound of my voice but says "dut dut", he does that with most every word I try to get him to say.
        Going in public with Braylon is sometimes a nightmare, but sometimes it's alot of fun. I don't visit my friends anymore, mainly because I feel like I have lost any sense of identity outside of dirty diapers and tantrums! Also I get way too stressed out when we visit people because when Brays tantrums start at someone elses house it's almost too much for me to handle and my anxiety soars thru the roof and its all I can do to get out of their door with some dignity. I love my little man more than life itself and want to show him off, I want others to enjoy the sweet, funny baby I know, but I don't have it in me anymore to go thru those meltdowns in public or at a friends house. It kills me inside to watch my baby appear to be in so much emotional pain and I have no idea how to ease it. My parents believe I am the cause, because they noticed that when I'm not around Bray isn't quite so emotional or bull headed or rotten! What i can't get them to understand is, when they aren't around he's not as crazy for me either!! The more people that are around it's like he just cant stand it. If his routine is broken even a little its the end of the world.
       I have spent many nites in self loathing at how I may have handled braylon that day. I would never abuse my boys but my patience is running extremely thin right now. With the recent split with my husband, the demands of my boys and the constant judgement or fights with my parents, I feel as though I cant take too much more. All the while my main focus right now is on my baby. I told the woman yesterday that my biggest fear is that I will screw him up somehow and I cant bear the thought of ruining any of my children. I am begging for the tools and coping skills to give braylon everything he needs from me and sometimes I think the ones closest to me don't get the extreme passion I feel inside to make this all better for him.
      I am not concerned about an autism diagnosis or any other one, I will love my baby no less than I do now. I am just ready for answers and a care plan so I can assure that my baby will be happy and healthy to the best of his mental ability! Welp, he is done eating now so it's time to go chase the wild man <3